Wednesday, November 25, 2009


Okay. I think I have figured something out. I have always loved food. Period. But here lately I am starting to think that I am just eating food because I miss it, not because I am hungry.

I know you know what I mean. Surely. Where are my hunger signals?

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

How Precious is THIS!?!

Me: "Ava Grace, What do you want Santa Claus to bring you for Christmas this year?"


Seriously... she melts my heart every day!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

I Can't Let Go...

Once upon a time I used to be a fun person... I promise.

For some reason I can not fully let go anymore. What is wrong with me?

Is it because I work from home and my work is always staring at me. 24-7.

When I am trying to have a fun day or relax... I can not keep the following from happening:

My mind is wandering off in VarsityLand thinking...
Checking the crackberry every 5 minutes afraid that my emails are piling up...
Thinking about what report is due next...
Thinking what more can I do...
The house needs to be cleaned...
I have tons of clothes to wash...
I need to organize this and that...

This thinking inhibits me from FULLY enjoying anything. Which is really sad. ya know.

I have discussed this with the hubby. Several ideas have been tossed around but no conclusions. We thought about setting office hours for myself. Work 'X' number of hours a day and THAT IS IT! But that is nearly impossible. During my busy time of the year I work ALOT LONGER and HARDER - then there is about a month out of the year that is not as busy and I have a little more free time. So it kinda all evens out. But where do I draw the line?

As for the house. I know it is here, the laundry is continuous (just as it is in every household), it is going to need to be cleaned. In this house - I do the laundry and cleaning and any organizing that gets done. I have tried several different schedules to keep everything running smoothly and they just don't see to work out. I either run out of hours in the day to get it all done or something happens (AG gets sick, big project for work due) and I fail miserably at my schedule. Then I am just all out of whack and feeling pretty much like I am today.

I need help. Any Suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

*I have asked the hubby when I can just be a stay at home mom or work part-time and the answer is pretty much a sarcastic laugh and a look like 'NEVER'... just wanted you to know on the front-end in case that was your suggestions.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Kitty Kat

Work has me going crazy right now... so not too much time to post.

Here is a picture of my little Kitty Kat! She had so much fun wearing her costume!